Twisted Deviant

it seems as though the words have left me those comfortable friends I wrapped myself in when times were cruel as the world often is and I am left standing naked before you in this moment that has no end every second begs with a pregnant pause the truth of these moments and I cannot hide from your gaze nor decipher your thoughts and I feel as if I am falling no longer protected hidden from the world I had no desire to partake of yet now I find myself thrust into this tiny moment of broad uncertainty edging towards something unfathomable would that I could claim bravery for I am a coward at heart quaking in fear for fear has long been my true friend yet now it grips me with powerful talons and I feel shredded to the core cynical and jaded am I or rather was so sure of my imperfection so sure of my unworthiness I am still very sure and it pains me to know the truth of myself yet wishing to be somehow better than I am more deserving of what I am still so unsure I do not know where this tho